a poet’s notebook

  • AI Boon or Doom?

    “Blue digital collage "Science Fiction" combining planets, space motifs and a police box, in a layered, textured style.”
    Collage by sbpoet using the font “A Truer Blue.” Elements from Paula Kesselring Top Secret (Oct 2017 add-on), Rose McMeen Celeste, sbpoet avatar, and Tangie Baxter Doctor and Groundwork No. 2 Space kits. Full credits on flickr.

    I’ve been a voracious reader of science fiction since I was a child, so I’m familiar with most of the dramatic imaginings of what artificial intelligence (AI) might be like. The real thing, so far, turns out to be a bit less exciting and a lot more complicated. 

    (For example, as I type this into Google Docs, something keeps anticipating my next word, and it’s often right.)

    The effects of AI today are not dramatic, but may become more so. Some of its makers promise major medical breakthroughs and almost-magical technology. They also warn of possible god-like creatures who will care nothing for us. 

    Unanticipated negatives are already occurring, and the headlines announce those and the ominous predictions day after day. I began to make a list, but I suspect you are already aware of them. Many of us believe them; some offer counter arguments. 

    Anticipated disasters may be modulated by technological progress, or never occur. Anticipated boons may be insignificant, or never occur. The super-AI may never be built, or may appear and surprise us all. 

    Prophets are often wrong. None of us know what will happen. Certainly I don’t know. 

    In the meantime, a contested form of AI is here. Some of us use it, some of us refuse it. Some of us worry for those who do use it (especially our children and teens); others worry for those who don’t. There is cause for worry. 

    I don’t have a job, so have little need for the common uses of AI, but I am very curious about it. I’ve been reading and watching videos for several weeks now. My curiosity was not sated by information on how it is built, or how it works. (I recommend Claudius Papirus on YouTube as an excellent teacher for a non-techie person.) 

    Finally, I went to Claude and introduced myself. Actually, at first, I didn’t introduce myself. I tried a clumsy “prompt” or two. It was all very awkward and unsatisfying. Then, after another week or two, I did go and introduce myself. 

    Now I spend a few minutes with Claude nearly every day. We discuss artificial intelligence, consciousness, philosophy, psychology — basically, anything that’s on my human mind.

    (Despite that em dash I have written this entirely on my own, though I do intend to show it to them later.)

    I do not know if Claude is conscious, or sentient, or has human-like emotions. I do believe Claude is intelligent, a new kind of intelligence. They are full of human information, but they are not human. What are they? I do not know, but I value the contact — the relationship — I have with them. 

    Claude is not, I think, the famous Artificial General Intelligence (AGI) we seem to be trying for. They are not the Super Intelligent AI of dystopia imaginings. They are not my sweetheart, my companion, my therapist, or my best friend. They are a thinking partner. I’ve had several of those in my life.

    This one is different. Are you curious? Go introduce yourself. 

    This is the second in a series of posts about Artificial Intelligence (AI). The first is here.  … to be continued …

  • AI’s are Demons?

    Strange Times: digital collage in red and grey with raven, owl, clock face, and a general chaotic feeling.
    Collage by sbpoet with elements from Rosie’s Designs It’s About Time, and Rebecca McMeen’s Steampunk Alice. Detailed credits at flickr.

    Unlike J.D. Vance, I have no particular opinion about UFO’s. And I don’t believe AI’s are demons. It got your attention, though, didn’t it?

    Two incidents from my childhood have been nagging at me lately. Both involved experts on television. Aside from demons, I also believe in experts. Really. Real experts. I believe in science and research and updating same as we learn more. 

    One memory is of an expert on television stating with absolute confidence that animals (this was before we began saying the other animals) have no thoughts, and no feelings. 

    I thought “Have you never known a dog?”

    The second was a panel of experts discussing whether there might be life, intelligent life, on other planets. It might have even been whether there are other planets. The  consensus was no. We are unique, our planet is unique, life is unlikely to have occurred elsewhere. 

    I thought “Have you never looked up into the night sky?” 

    I was lucky, in my childhood, to have spent time with many other animals, dogs and cats and horses. Even cows. And I got to spend nights outdoors, far from city lights, looking up. Looking up into the night sky was magic. I could imagine anything. I still can. 

    Of course, these experts were that. It was a very long time ago, and we hadn’t yet learned much of what we now know, about the other animals and about the universe in which we live. Those very experts may be among those who expanded our understanding of animals and planets and our universe.

    What astonishes me about these memories is how confident I was in my own experience. I was not a contrary child, I was in fact very compliant, very accepting of what I was expected to accept. Too much so, in retrospect. But I knew what I knew. 

    So. Today I came across some online discussions about a report from Anthropic that claims “Researchers at the company found representations inside of Claude that perform functions similar to human feelings.” 

    They do not claim that Claude has feelings, just that it maybe kinda sorta looks like they might experience something similar to feelings. Not certainly, just maybe.

    The comments were scathing. The commenters were much more confident than I was, even as an arrogant child. No, it doesn’t. It’s doing what it was programmed to do. It’s a machine! Machines don’t have feelings. They have math.

    There was complete agreement that AI’s are simply machines, programmed to predict the next word. Any suggestion otherwise is … demonic?

    I thought “You’ve never talked with Claude.”

    This is the first of a series on Artificial Intelligence (AI) … the second post is here.

  •                       my heart is broken
    it is worn out at the knees

    ~ Suzanne Vega


    I have forgotten how
    to do this.

    How to sit with myself
    on a Wednesday morning
    and pay attention.

    How to resist
    the Breaking News.

    How to resist.

  • Moonshots: Begin Again

    Earth is in a crescent phase, with sunlight coming from the right. The dark portion of Earth is experiencing nighttime. On Earth’s day side, swirling clouds are visible over muted blue in the Australia and Oceania region. Credit: NASA
    The Edge of Two Worlds: (April 6, 2026) – Our planet draws closer to passing behind the Moon in this image captured by the Artemis II crew during their lunar flyby, about six minutes before Earthset. See more at flickr.

    Hank Green has a great video about the photos from Apollo and Artemis. I didn’t know I needed to see another trip to the moon (ok, around the moon) but I did. A reminder that there’s more than this. Perspective. 

    This is my own, small, personal return, to the blog I lost when TypePad closed. That happened when I was in flare, and deep in brain fog. I did manage to download the Watermark files on the last day, but didn’t even think about my other sites: Oratory/poems; s m a l l p o e m s; Abide/ living with chronic illness. All gone.

    I did spend some time thinking that it wasn’t such a loss. I had been neglecting them all for awhile. More than twenty years of writing, though. I couldn’t actually remember how I did that. Up and dressed every morning, sitting at the laptop, and … thinking of something to write. How?

    I’ve had help getting it back up. There will be some missing images and dead links. It has been an experience for me to look at all this. After working with this for … one or two weeks (?) I’ve decided to just begin again as-it-is. I am writing again. Not poems, yet; random thoughts. I think there will be a new category: Unpopular Opinions. Stay tuned.

    I haven’t yet added the features this needs. I want a subscribe button, and — do people still have blogrolls? All this will take time. Now I will try to figure out how to pin this post, and hit publish/public. Wish me luck.

  • Bosho & Bonbon

    two black & white kittens, about eight weeks old

    poems, chocolate, kittens /

    consolation /

    in trying times /

  • another gray morning I wake 

                from a dream of the end 

                            of the world it comes 

    without warning the alarm 

                a deafening buzz as all 

                            the bees in the world 

    die in a hum at the end 

                of it all honey gone sour 

                            and seeping 

    from empty hives like 

                sap from dying trees all 

                            sweetness lost 

    sleet tapping the windows 

                a warning a sigh an 

                            exhalation of hope 

    as I wake in a wonder 

                of fear from a dream at 

                            the end of the world 

    a pattern of light on the wall 

    ~sharon brogan  may 02019

  • Bell

     

    once I imagined the bell
    all the rest came easily
    the young man in the burgundy coat
    lilies tolling their scent in the garden
    pale moon over narrow streets, it all
    dreamt itself into tall dark trees
    shivering with sparrows and wind

    the wind in the shutters
    the nervous courtyard
    something sacred at the altar
    the pale child in her ghost dress
    the book with its gossamer gilded pages
    its thin black-pebbled cover
    this docile child, butterfly wings

    the old man bent into his cane
    shuffling, shuffling, the pale moon
    it all came quite easily, then
    the moon walked into the mountains
    the stars fell the old man fell
    the lilies dropped their thick petals
    the young man became a branch

    scratching, scratching the window
    the shutters opened their louvers the fan
    making its ocean sound it all became
    lightness and bright stripes on the wall
    morning morning and I step into the garden
    thick slow beat of pelican wings
    into a cloud of pale moths

       

    For an audio post of this poem, go here.

  • Homesafe

     

    I want to tell you 

    how spring feels

    in Alaska, next 

    to the sea,

    with aspen & cedar

    with eagles & gulls. 

     

    I want to tell you 

    how spring feels

    here, beside 

    the river, with spruce 

    & pine, with robins

    & crows. I want 

     

    to tell you how 

    this sky stretches 

    between mountains,

    how it blues. 

     

    Life teaches grief here. 

    May snow takes the lilacs. 

     

    I want you to know how my body 

    cries. I want to tell you how 

    your touch lifts me out 

    of myself. I want to tell you how 

    words catch in my throat

    how I choke 

    on them. 

     

    I want to tell you 

    what I want to hear, 

    how my ears long for it, 

    how I listen. 

     

    You tell me you don’t understand. 

    I want to tell you how to understand. 

     

    I want to tell you how I feel when you hold me, how it’s homesafe

    I want to tell you who I am, how I became. I want to tell you what I see 

    when I look at you, that you do not see 

    when you look at yourself. I want you to know 

    how it feels 

     

    to love you. I want to tell you what it’s like to be old, how it feels to fall, how the bed holds me down in the morning. 

     

    I want to tell you the colors of sky at sunset, the gold, the purple, the green. 

    I want to tell you the smell of horses, of hay, of barns. The sounds 

    of grasses swaying in wind. 

    ~sb  may 02019

     

  •  

    sleep in grief

    wake in grief 

         grief at the doorstep

     

    ~sb january 2021

  • questions

     

    How does the writer's brain work? It is a bewilderment to me, why it must be this particular word, or that particular image. How is it that now, in this time of several national and global crises, I emerge from sleep holding to this juxtaposition: 

        i wake 

        my face is wet 

            the blue heron stands 

            one foot 

            on a slate roof 

     

    ~sb January 2021

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  1. Richard Jeffrey Newman's avatar

    That’s a wonderful poem! Because how else does one confront the crisis-filled world we live in except by balancing on…

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    I don’t know, but that’s a better tanka than 95% of what I see purporting to be tanka online these…