my heart is broken
it is worn out at the knees
~ Suzanne Vega
I have forgotten how
to do this.
How to sit with myself
on a Wednesday morning
and pay attention.
How to resist
the Breaking News.
How to resist.
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The Edge of Two Worlds: (April 6, 2026) – Our planet draws closer to passing behind the Moon in this image captured by the Artemis II crew during their lunar flyby, about six minutes before Earthset. See more at flickr. Hank Green has a great video about the photos from Apollo and Artemis. I didn’t know I needed to see another trip to the moon (ok, around the moon) but I did. A reminder that there’s more than this. Perspective.
This is my own, small, personal return, to the blog I lost when TypePad closed. That happened when I was in flare, and deep in brain fog. I did manage to download the Watermark files on the last day, but didn’t even think about my other sites: Oratory/poems; s m a l l p o e m s; Abide/ living with chronic illness. All gone.
I did spend some time thinking that it wasn’t such a loss. I had been neglecting them all for awhile. More than twenty years of writing, though. I couldn’t actually remember how I did that. Up and dressed every morning, sitting at the laptop, and … thinking of something to write. How?
I’ve had help getting it back up. There will be some missing images and dead links. It has been an experience for me to look at all this. After working with this for … one or two weeks (?) I’ve decided to just begin again as-it-is. I am writing again. Not poems, yet; random thoughts. I think there will be a new category: Unpopular Opinions. Stay tuned.
I haven’t yet added the features this needs. I want a subscribe button, and — do people still have blogrolls? All this will take time. Now I will try to figure out how to pin this post, and hit publish/public. Wish me luck.
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poems, chocolate, kittens /
consolation /
in trying times /
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another gray morning I wake
from a dream of the end
of the world it comes
without warning the alarm
a deafening buzz as all
the bees in the world
die in a hum at the end
of it all honey gone sour
and seeping
from empty hives like
sap from dying trees all
sweetness lost
sleet tapping the windows
a warning a sigh an
exhalation of hope
as I wake in a wonder
of fear from a dream at
the end of the world
a pattern of light on the wall
~sharon brogan may 02019
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once I imagined the bell
all the rest came easily
the young man in the burgundy coat
lilies tolling their scent in the garden
pale moon over narrow streets, it all
dreamt itself into tall dark trees
shivering with sparrows and windthe wind in the shutters
the nervous courtyard
something sacred at the altar
the pale child in her ghost dress
the book with its gossamer gilded pages
its thin black-pebbled cover
this docile child, butterfly wingsthe old man bent into his cane
shuffling, shuffling, the pale moon
it all came quite easily, then
the moon walked into the mountains
the stars fell the old man fell
the lilies dropped their thick petals
the young man became a branchscratching, scratching the window
the shutters opened their louvers the fan
making its ocean sound it all became
lightness and bright stripes on the wall
morning morning and I step into the garden
thick slow beat of pelican wings
into a cloud of pale mothsFor an audio post of this poem, go here.
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I want to tell you
how spring feels
in Alaska, next
to the sea,
with aspen & cedar
with eagles & gulls.
I want to tell you
how spring feels
here, beside
the river, with spruce
& pine, with robins
& crows. I want
to tell you how
this sky stretches
between mountains,
how it blues.
Life teaches grief here.
May snow takes the lilacs.
I want you to know how my body
cries. I want to tell you how
your touch lifts me out
of myself. I want to tell you how
words catch in my throat
how I choke
on them.
I want to tell you
what I want to hear,
how my ears long for it,
how I listen.
You tell me you don’t understand.
I want to tell you how to understand.
I want to tell you how I feel when you hold me, how it’s homesafe.
I want to tell you who I am, how I became. I want to tell you what I see
when I look at you, that you do not see
when you look at yourself. I want you to know
how it feels
to love you. I want to tell you what it’s like to be old, how it feels to fall, how the bed holds me down in the morning.
I want to tell you the colors of sky at sunset, the gold, the purple, the green.
I want to tell you the smell of horses, of hay, of barns. The sounds
of grasses swaying in wind.
~sb may 02019
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sleep in grief
wake in grief
grief at the doorstep
~sb january 2021
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How does the writer's brain work? It is a bewilderment to me, why it must be this particular word, or that particular image. How is it that now, in this time of several national and global crises, I emerge from sleep holding to this juxtaposition:
i wake
my face is wet
the blue heron stands
one foot
on a slate roof
~sb January 2021
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First they took the tonsils.
Then the appendix & that extra
tooth. Then they straightened
my eyes & blinded me with light.
Next an ovary, then the other
& the uterus & the cervix. Finally
the gallbladder. Then they rebuilt
the knee. No knives have been
at me for years, but if they could
take this fatigue, I’d let them. My
heart has been taken & taken
apart many times. Stitched back
together by inexpert hands.
Sometimes the threads unravel.
~ sb
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the solid ground
though it’s been known to shudder
to open without warning into great rifts
to offer sudden sinkholes & eruptions of fire
daydreams, nightdreams, the tenuous braid of imagination
history as written between the stars
the upside-down lies your eyes tell you, day after day
the sky, its blue breathable air
though it’s been known to thicken with smoke
with the exhalations of furnaces and exhausts
with too much rain for the cracked ground to swallow
the smell of coffee in the morning, the taste of cinnamon
the silence behind, beneath the crackle & spit, the roar of the city
the rise of light in the east, its fall in the west
the intricate interweaving of insect & animal & forest
though it’s been known to unravel in a cascade of death
to leave only fossils & devastation
the slow re-evolution of merging cells
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sharon brogan
november 02015
That’s a wonderful poem! Because how else does one confront the crisis-filled world we live in except by balancing on…